You’re More Powerful Than You Allowed Yourself To Imagine, Now What?

A Winter Solstice Offering

In today’s episode For The Worldbuilders, we’re talking about a threshold. A gate. A psychic and somatic doorway. A portal. An initiation every creative powerhouse goes through. This is the initiation of honoring the fears of our scared inner child. Many of us want to skip this important work in favor of speed and action. Inside this desire we misinterpret speed and action as power moves — when in fact, they are the opposite. This is what happens when we are trying to outrun fear instead of slowing down long enough to learn from and collaborate with it.

As Sonya Renee Taylor reminds us, we don’t feel the fear and do it anyway — that’s the way of the old world. In the new worlds we are creating, we feel the fear and sit with it together. I am showing up today to meet you where you are and to meet myself where I am. I am intuiting many of us have been doing the excavating work of getting curious about our subconscious fears all year. Many of us have been tending to our fear with care, listening to the scared inner child in us all and cultivating practices to establish self trust in collaboration with our inner child and our communities.

My intention inside this episode is to honor all the work you’ve done this year by offering a Winter Solstice spell, inviting you to get curious about the somatic architecture you’re dreaming from inside your next season.

But above all, in this episode, I want to celebrate you. Over the past 5 years you have held, protested and organized around the overlapping grief of witnessing public lynchings by the hands of the police, a global pandemic we’re still inside of, wildfires and other continuous climate crises and mobilized against genocide and humanitarian crises from Palestine to Sudan — not to name the domestic and relational ruptures you’ve tended to on more intimate scales, the new cities moved to, the new homes and communities you’ve had to build. And look at you, still choosing vulnerability, still choosing relation, still choosing love, still choosing to believe in yourself and your values and by extension — still choosing to believe in us. For that I am recording this episode to say thank you. This is my offering of gratitude. Thank you for believing in us.

When the work we’re doing feels impossible, you remind us of our possibility.

So be it, see to it, breathe through it,

Ayana