But…"I’m Scared": Being Unafraid Isn’t a Prerequisite for Transformation
For The Worldbuilders Ep. 036
Seeda School hosts a 9-week retreat helping you seed or deepen an interdisciplinary practice, release an income generating creative offer and develop a cohesive narrative through the framework of your values and worldbuilding.
Hey fellow Worldbuilder,
Just like last week, Thursday’s Worldbuilding Workshop left me open. We ideated on our creative offers using The Creative Offer Questionnaire to Oneself, shared our transformation journeys, invoked Alexis Pauline Gumbs and more. In this week’s podcast episode we do something similar, this time inviting us to consider why we might be hesitating with fear around releasing our creative offers and engaging in a public practice.
In this episode we address fears rooted in:
The daunting journey of transformation
The habitual commitment to self doubt that is perfectionism1
The overwhelming reality of not knowing where/how to start materializing our creative visions and callings
We address these fears, and more, all with grace. All while committing to redirecting our distrust. We live in a system that teaches us to distrust our desire when it’s the system itself that is unworthy of our trust.
In this episode we remember all the possibility embedded on the other side of beginning. I want to invite you to begin with us this winter where we will hold ourselves accountable to doing the work of transmuting our fear into love through building creative offers serving the communities we care about. Enrollment into the Seed A World Retreat closes on Monday, January 29th at midnight.
What Seeda School Worldbuilders Are Saying About the Retreat…
“The violence is endless under empire and white supremacy, but so is our capacity to imagine new worlds and to love on each other” – a thought Ayana offered us early on, amid the grief, heartbreak and rage at the apocalypses taking place close and far, is also the best summation of this heart-and-possibilities-expanding retreat. Under Ayana’s effervescent, loving, wise guidance and expansive vision, these 9 weeks were a space for us to practice loving ourselves – breathing through fear, taking our desires, curiosities and oddities seriously, seeing a divine throughline in our journeys, choosing to start without having all the information – in order to answer the call from our people, past and present, and bring about the futures we need today. I told everyone I care about of the gift that is the Seed A World Retreat, looking forward to revisiting our session recordings and completing the worksheets (that I know my life depends on <3). I am so grateful I followed my intuition (and desire!) and chose to invest in myself through this course. I am grateful and forever charged/changed by this offering, that Ayana had dreamt up and powerfully-beautifully woven into being.”
— Aisha Jandosova, Fall 2023
“The Seed A World Retreat offered by Seeda School was an invitation to revisit the primordial womb; a safe and warm place for meaningful growth and expansion of our deepest desires. Ayana's passion and deep community care shone through as she guided/facilitated the cohort to transform the seeds of our deepest desires into tangible and beautiful offerings to the world. The carefully curated Retreat Workbook allowed us to seed, tend to, grow (and prune when necessary) our ideas into structured next steps. I'm so happy to have had the opportunity to commune with other like-minded, community-oriented folk who share the same passion for building worlds that provide ample space and opportunity for radical, free existence and communion.”
— Yen C, Fall 2023
Give this episode a listen and let us know what you think! We’d love to worldbuild with you inside the upcoming retreat so never hesitate to reply to this email or at info@seedaschool.com and reach out with any questions before enrolling. We’re here.
With desire,
Ayana
“Perfectionism is a commitment to habitual self-doubt.” ― Prentis Hemphill, Embodiment Practitioner, Writer & Facilitator